Back to start!

Do you remember playing board games when you're a kid? I was carzy about those. My friends and I always play board games like the game of life, monopoly, millionaires game, snakes and ladders and all board games from Disney. In all of those games there's always a box that says "Go Back To Start". Once your "pamato" goes there, there's nothing you can do but go to the start.

Growing up is like playing board games. There are times you loose and there are times you win. Don't forget that there are times you are asked and sometimes forced to go back to start.

We are the ones rolling our own dice. Minsan pabor ang number na lumalabas and we're snuddenly going to the right direction. But there's a time when it doesn't go our way. Do you think destiny can be compared to rolling a dice? Or the number that comes out once it's rolled and stopped? For me yes.

We can control our destiny. There are moments when everythings going our way because of the choices that we made. Those choices made peoples lives happy and full of purpose. Sa buhay ko, nung bata ako ganyan ako pero nung lumaki na ako, hindi na.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit? Nawalan na lang ako ng drive to be successful. It's like every decision that I made in my life turn out to be worst decision of them all.

Now, I'm trying to stop making decisions first. Put everything on hold and compose myself. I think this is the best thing for me. Tigilan ko muna ang kakaisip at kakakilos.

Di naman sa tinatamad ako or anything. I spent 2 year of making bad decisions. I will allow myself a couple of weeks to regroup. Think things through. There's so many things going on in my life that I forget what my priorities really are.

It's time na mag-isip ako. Hangga't may oras pa. Sana naman e may ma-pala ako sa pahingang ito. Para naman gumanda na ang lumabas na number once it's my turn to roll the dice again. I don't want to go back to start again.