Memoir of My Havies

Goodbye my Blue 2 year old Havaianas! We've been through a lot, we went to different places and you were always there whenever I need you. Since you can never be used, I hope this memoir will bring back all the things we through together.

I bought it using my sister's credit card at Rustan's Makati for our Puerto Galera trip. I heard from people that it's very durable but a bit expensive. I told myself why not go for quality and i have to splurge a bit.

My havaianas was there when I went to Puerto Galera (twice), La Union, Batangas, Laguna, Subic, Baguio, and many places. I never thought that a flip flop would mean something in my life and as the strap broke one night, every memory came back and i just wanted to thank my slippers for coming with me whenever I go.

Thanks!

My Best Plan... or is it?

I wrote this on my Myspace blog just now. Just to give you a background, It's been 2 years since I wrote from my account and I thought I should give them an update on what are the thing that happened in my life.

Once you read this there's something I'd like o ask you in the end.

It's been a very very long time since I wrote a blog here. There's so many things that happened since 2006 (that's how long it is!).Many ups and downs but still was able to live life and just went on with what I have have to do everyday.

There were times that I feel very pressured. Pressured to finish my studies but i ended up not finishing college. I was taking up Mechanical Engineering and I was on my fifth and final year.

Eventhough I wasn't able to finish school, I was able to find a job. I became an academic tutor to Korean students who chose to study here in our country. It was a very fun experience. Learned so many things specially interacting with people of a different race and also it help me try to understand and appreciate other people with different cultures. This experience also taught me to be more patient towards others and just enjoy doing your work. I also realized that after all your hard work, you can buy anything you want with your hard earned money and of course, spending money wisely.

I quit the tutoring gig and chose to work for a call center. The call center industry in the country is fast growing. There's so many companies that kept poppoing out every month. During those years since I last wrote my blog here, I was able to work with 4 call centers. The longest time that I stayed with one of the companies was 1 year and 7 months, the shortest is 3 mos.

Currently, I am employed with 24/7. We accept calls australian landline customers. It's a day shift, not like most call centers here wherein they work mostly during the night. I've been working there since April this year.

I am on leave right now because of a sickness that my docotr is still observing. He is trying to see if I really have laryngeal tuberculosis. I've been on leave for almost a month. I'm kinda scared that I'll be enable to go back to work because of my sickness or if they'll still would like to to go back and work for them.

Today, I'll be going back to the office and will arrange come thing at work. I'll also be speaking with my supervisor about the status of my employment with the company.

Since I'm not going to work, I'm not gonna be expecting a salary for the next two pay outs. Good thing i was able to refer a friend and she already passed. I'll be expecting to get a 5000 peso worth of gift certificates that I can perhaps sell to my friends so that I can have money on hand.

There are times when I'm alone, when I think about the tings that happened in my life if it's a bad one or if it's normal. I've been trying to figure out how to set all things straight and for me to be back on track again. Just by thinking about those, stress comes in again.

What I'm thinking of doing is to just go with the flow and I'll just just to what comes to my mind first. I don't think that it's too late to turn things back to normal and I'll just do it at my own pace. Inot going to pressure myself to set thing straight away. Everythings going to happen when they happen. I'll just do whatever I can and maybe two years from now I'll just realize that I did it.

You know what, just by writing this blog, I've just made the best plan that i've ever had since 2006.

Here's the question:

Should I forget the things that I wrote on my last two blogs? Is this the best plan for me to achieve the thing that I want?

Please, if you happen to go to this site, I would really appreciate some answers.

Thanks!

Somewhere Provincial?

No I'm not referring to Palawan 2 in cubao! It's been a month since I went there... Anyways, I'm still here in Batangas City. trying to make myself in good shape again. The past few days have been a rollercoaster ride for me. Since I didn't have anything to do, some of the things that I didn't or avoid to think about came to my mind. somethings that still haunt me when there's nothing to think about.

If you were able to read my previous blog, you'll have an idea of what's been happening to me when I think about those things. Some of it are not finishing studies and pressuring myself to go back to school. Trying to figure out ways of on starting to go back to school.

When I watched The Tyra Show a couple of days ago, they were talking about the 7 deadly sins. There's this one part wherein there's this one girl who admitted that she's committing Gluttony. She's eating when she feels pressured. The priest who was there told her that she has to figure out what's bothering her. What make her feel pressured and the only thing that she has to do is to take it one step at a time.

Jordin Sparks may be right but there's this one thing, which comes first? The one that makes you pressured is the planning stage. Just thinking about the steps that you have to take to achieve a certain goal will just make you give up. Some say that by just thinking of an inspiration or something to motivate you will help you get the job done. But what if there's none? What if the ones that your thinking about isn't enough? Or will you be able to think of the will push you to success?

That also adds much pressure. Writing about this stresses me out. Is it good to just do it and not to think about anything else? Is it ok if i'll just go with the flow and let the rhythm take me? I'm thinking that since I know that there's gonna be an opportunity one after the other right?

There are time that I think that is planning adds stress to us? I know many people will disagress but I'm sorry, when I plan things, I feel like there's so many dead ends that I can come accross and makes me think thaat I'll just end miserable just like I am now.

Here's what I'm gonna do, I'll just do what I c an think of at the present and go for it! Just wait and see what will happen. Is that a plan? Did I just formulated a plan? Why the hell am I saying that I don't believe in making plans in the first place? or should I just look for the nearest shrink?

Bakasyonista

You've guessed it! I'm still out of work! My sister has been asking me to come over to their place in Batangas for several weeks and I only thought of coming over here. It's been 6 days since I arrived and the only thing I did here was to sleep and eat. There are times that I watch t.v. and help my neice with her lessons. What a very productive day it has been!

These past few days has been very stressful. It's physically but mentally. I've been thinking of things that I should do with my life. I've been thinking about how I should go back to school. I'm also thinking if I will be able to go back to work.

I'm tired of all the pressure. I just wanted to go on with my life without any more things to think about. I just wanted to live a smooth sailing life.

I'm a little tired of thinking of ways that I can overcome these challenges. I'm close to giving up. I'm close not to move on...