Somewhere Provincial?

No I'm not referring to Palawan 2 in cubao! It's been a month since I went there... Anyways, I'm still here in Batangas City. trying to make myself in good shape again. The past few days have been a rollercoaster ride for me. Since I didn't have anything to do, some of the things that I didn't or avoid to think about came to my mind. somethings that still haunt me when there's nothing to think about.

If you were able to read my previous blog, you'll have an idea of what's been happening to me when I think about those things. Some of it are not finishing studies and pressuring myself to go back to school. Trying to figure out ways of on starting to go back to school.

When I watched The Tyra Show a couple of days ago, they were talking about the 7 deadly sins. There's this one part wherein there's this one girl who admitted that she's committing Gluttony. She's eating when she feels pressured. The priest who was there told her that she has to figure out what's bothering her. What make her feel pressured and the only thing that she has to do is to take it one step at a time.

Jordin Sparks may be right but there's this one thing, which comes first? The one that makes you pressured is the planning stage. Just thinking about the steps that you have to take to achieve a certain goal will just make you give up. Some say that by just thinking of an inspiration or something to motivate you will help you get the job done. But what if there's none? What if the ones that your thinking about isn't enough? Or will you be able to think of the will push you to success?

That also adds much pressure. Writing about this stresses me out. Is it good to just do it and not to think about anything else? Is it ok if i'll just go with the flow and let the rhythm take me? I'm thinking that since I know that there's gonna be an opportunity one after the other right?

There are time that I think that is planning adds stress to us? I know many people will disagress but I'm sorry, when I plan things, I feel like there's so many dead ends that I can come accross and makes me think thaat I'll just end miserable just like I am now.

Here's what I'm gonna do, I'll just do what I c an think of at the present and go for it! Just wait and see what will happen. Is that a plan? Did I just formulated a plan? Why the hell am I saying that I don't believe in making plans in the first place? or should I just look for the nearest shrink?