He's leaving in a month's time. He's going to stay in Florida for 3 years. I'll be in a long distance relationship and I don't know if we'll be able to work it out that way. Where will I stay while he's gone?
We've talked about it, when I told him that I wanted to stay with my mom in Las Pinas, he got sad. When his friends asked him where will I stay he old them it's up to me. I'm confused! I already asked somebody what's their take on this, they told me to stay in Las Pinas to avoid troub;e with his family. I'm just looking at the worst case scenario.
Totally, I'm a stranger to this house. They don't know where exactly my house is. They only know me as Vince, his friend who doesn't have a place to stay whenever he has work, To some, his boyfriend of almost 4 years.
I stayed here because of him. I wanted to be close to him everyday. I wanted to know what it feels like to have a man in my life in which I haven't experienced growing up. I wanted someone to guide me and to support me in everything I do. You know what, thats what I get here in this house.
Now that he's leaving, I'm alone again. Will i be able to go and live my life without him around. Knowing that there's YM, but is it enough? WIll I be able to get the same things through that?
I don't know why we can't talk about these things seriously. I sometimes think that I'm not a part of his decisions. Like what happened last night, he told his friends that he's going to Lucena tomorrow. not that i don't want him to go, but at least tell me that he's going.
There are time that his friends tell me that I should know this or some things that's been happening by now. I just tell them maybe he'll tell me about teh whole thing later, in which he didn't.
I wanted to confront him, or just tell him what I feel about this. But I'm afraid that he'll take it in another way. Or he might misunderstand what I'm trying to say.
I wanted to tell him that I'll be ab;e to tell him where I'll be staying once I find a new job. That I'm going to make things right for my life. That I'm tired of how things are and I wanted to change it. I wanted him to know what I feel and why these things are happening.
I realized that where to stay is not just the problem. It's us. There something wrong with everything and I'm not sure if he notices it, or i'm the one who's taking everything for granted.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Call Center Life... in gist!
Gising sa gabi, tulog sa umaga, inuman at 8am, lasing sa tanghali, social life score -100, holidays (wala sa bokabularyo), weekends off (luxury), split offs (parusa), rotating and shifting schedule, shift bid, sched swaps, 10X4 shifts, night differential, transpo and meal allowance, rice allowance( dapat!), 13th month pay, double pay, RD OT, OT TY,
Inbound cs, inbound sales, outbound sales, collections, financial cs, telecoms cs, healthcare, travel, transcription, technical support, email/chat support, business processing, payroll, hr, accounting, web design, techie stuff,
Chicken sa ministop, , 24 hour fastfood (Jollibee at Mcdonalds), coke, Starbucks, baon (pagnagtitipid at kung nagtratraining)
2 yosi sa 15 minute break, sakay ng elevator, 1 hour lunch… tawad 45 minutes… final offer 30 minutes… wag na lang.
auto-in, aux, coaching, log out, head set, Avaya, Plantronics, sup call, aht, queuing, avail, petiks, quality scores, CSAT! VOC! Sales rate, LPH, calls per day, per month, per year,
limpak limpak na jacket, shawl, spill proof mugs, makapal na curtain (black dapat),
training, Can 8, role play, call simulation, interview, competency assurance, Neutral English, evaluation,
taxi, jeep, ordinary na bus, lakad, peppermint spray, kotse
How may I help you today? Was I able to solve your inquiry? Is there anything else for today? May I verify your name, dob, acct number and last four digits of your social? To make sure I understand it correctly you said your concern was… We don’t tolerate the language your using… this is my second warning… I’d like to repeat we do not tol…I’m sorry I have to release this call… thank you for calling. Good morning! I’m sorry to hear that. Let me help you with that. I’ll wee if my supervisor is available. I would like to inform you that we’re offering… oh I see, maybe some other time. Do you have kids? Maybe you can give them a birthday gift or something… I’m sure you’ll be interested when you hear the details. This is for security purposes.
NCNS, excessive absences, excessive tardiness, call avoidance, drop call, inappropriate transfer, low quality scores, economic crisis, pull out, center closure, illegal phone, activity
Termination!
Inbound cs, inbound sales, outbound sales, collections, financial cs, telecoms cs, healthcare, travel, transcription, technical support, email/chat support, business processing, payroll, hr, accounting, web design, techie stuff,
Chicken sa ministop, , 24 hour fastfood (Jollibee at Mcdonalds), coke, Starbucks, baon (pagnagtitipid at kung nagtratraining)
2 yosi sa 15 minute break, sakay ng elevator, 1 hour lunch… tawad 45 minutes… final offer 30 minutes… wag na lang.
auto-in, aux, coaching, log out, head set, Avaya, Plantronics, sup call, aht, queuing, avail, petiks, quality scores, CSAT! VOC! Sales rate, LPH, calls per day, per month, per year,
limpak limpak na jacket, shawl, spill proof mugs, makapal na curtain (black dapat),
training, Can 8, role play, call simulation, interview, competency assurance, Neutral English, evaluation,
taxi, jeep, ordinary na bus, lakad, peppermint spray, kotse
How may I help you today? Was I able to solve your inquiry? Is there anything else for today? May I verify your name, dob, acct number and last four digits of your social? To make sure I understand it correctly you said your concern was… We don’t tolerate the language your using… this is my second warning… I’d like to repeat we do not tol…I’m sorry I have to release this call… thank you for calling. Good morning! I’m sorry to hear that. Let me help you with that. I’ll wee if my supervisor is available. I would like to inform you that we’re offering… oh I see, maybe some other time. Do you have kids? Maybe you can give them a birthday gift or something… I’m sure you’ll be interested when you hear the details. This is for security purposes.
NCNS, excessive absences, excessive tardiness, call avoidance, drop call, inappropriate transfer, low quality scores, economic crisis, pull out, center closure, illegal phone, activity
Termination!
Friday, February 6, 2009
Back to start!
Do you remember playing board games when you're a kid? I was carzy about those. My friends and I always play board games like the game of life, monopoly, millionaires game, snakes and ladders and all board games from Disney. In all of those games there's always a box that says "Go Back To Start". Once your "pamato" goes there, there's nothing you can do but go to the start.
Growing up is like playing board games. There are times you loose and there are times you win. Don't forget that there are times you are asked and sometimes forced to go back to start.
We are the ones rolling our own dice. Minsan pabor ang number na lumalabas and we're snuddenly going to the right direction. But there's a time when it doesn't go our way. Do you think destiny can be compared to rolling a dice? Or the number that comes out once it's rolled and stopped? For me yes.
We can control our destiny. There are moments when everythings going our way because of the choices that we made. Those choices made peoples lives happy and full of purpose. Sa buhay ko, nung bata ako ganyan ako pero nung lumaki na ako, hindi na.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit? Nawalan na lang ako ng drive to be successful. It's like every decision that I made in my life turn out to be worst decision of them all.
Now, I'm trying to stop making decisions first. Put everything on hold and compose myself. I think this is the best thing for me. Tigilan ko muna ang kakaisip at kakakilos.
Di naman sa tinatamad ako or anything. I spent 2 year of making bad decisions. I will allow myself a couple of weeks to regroup. Think things through. There's so many things going on in my life that I forget what my priorities really are.
It's time na mag-isip ako. Hangga't may oras pa. Sana naman e may ma-pala ako sa pahingang ito. Para naman gumanda na ang lumabas na number once it's my turn to roll the dice again. I don't want to go back to start again.
Growing up is like playing board games. There are times you loose and there are times you win. Don't forget that there are times you are asked and sometimes forced to go back to start.
We are the ones rolling our own dice. Minsan pabor ang number na lumalabas and we're snuddenly going to the right direction. But there's a time when it doesn't go our way. Do you think destiny can be compared to rolling a dice? Or the number that comes out once it's rolled and stopped? For me yes.
We can control our destiny. There are moments when everythings going our way because of the choices that we made. Those choices made peoples lives happy and full of purpose. Sa buhay ko, nung bata ako ganyan ako pero nung lumaki na ako, hindi na.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit? Nawalan na lang ako ng drive to be successful. It's like every decision that I made in my life turn out to be worst decision of them all.
Now, I'm trying to stop making decisions first. Put everything on hold and compose myself. I think this is the best thing for me. Tigilan ko muna ang kakaisip at kakakilos.
Di naman sa tinatamad ako or anything. I spent 2 year of making bad decisions. I will allow myself a couple of weeks to regroup. Think things through. There's so many things going on in my life that I forget what my priorities really are.
It's time na mag-isip ako. Hangga't may oras pa. Sana naman e may ma-pala ako sa pahingang ito. Para naman gumanda na ang lumabas na number once it's my turn to roll the dice again. I don't want to go back to start again.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
New Work!
I just started with my new work two weeks ago! I'm now a part time technical customer care representative. It's new and I'm not sure if I'll be able to pull it off. I found new friends and promised old friends from my old work not to forget about them. I will and I do promise you guys that I'll never forget you guys!
I miss my old colleagues. I regret leaving and wasting all opportunities given to me. But there's nothing I can do now and I realized it very well.
Looking At The Bright Side...
I'll be able to look for a school to continue my studies. It makes me excited just thinking about it!
I'm still getting myself ready for this new chapter in my life. Hope everything goes well. Nothing can stop me now, especially those k*re*n idiots that busted me out of my second job.
I'll move on!
I miss my old colleagues. I regret leaving and wasting all opportunities given to me. But there's nothing I can do now and I realized it very well.
Looking At The Bright Side...
I'll be able to look for a school to continue my studies. It makes me excited just thinking about it!
I'm still getting myself ready for this new chapter in my life. Hope everything goes well. Nothing can stop me now, especially those k*re*n idiots that busted me out of my second job.
I'll move on!
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